I used to be that person that thought things like gastric bypass surgery was for those looking for a quick fix. That they sought the surgery because they didn’t have enough self-discipline to change their eating and exercise habits. I tried and failed. And tried again, and failed again. And again, and again.
Now I’m on the other side. I’m seeking gastric bypass surgery.
And look, it’s even real. My packet came in the mail the other day.
After doing a lot of research, I have pretty much decided that I can’t live like this anymore. I’m tired all the time and I have no energy. My body hurts. I get winded easily. My self-esteem is so far down the toilet that I think it may actually be in the sewer. I hate going out in public simply because I hate the way I look. My clothes fit poorly. I want to be healthy and have kids and live to see them grow up.
I’ve done a lot lot LOT of research in the past few days. Weeks. More difficult than I thought it might be. Evaluations, tests, consults. Lab work, interviews. Something that will take months rather than weeks. One the plus side, I was told that my insurance covers the surgery at 90%. They cover most stuff at 60-80% so that was a perk to hear.
Here’s a handy little wallet card (? – I have no idea wtf this is. Winning there, Cleveland Clinic.) showing everything that I need to do in order to be considered as a candidate. First step: psych eval.
I am a little worried about this part to be honest. It’s not like I have the best track run with mental health history. However, I don’t have anything that is an “automatic” rule out which appears to be pyschosis, borderline personality disorder, or a substance abuse addiction. I plan to be open and honest with the tests and evaluations and during the clinical interview and take the recommendations and work them. Hopefully completing Binge Eating IOP counts for something, though. I haven’t binged since I started the program – overate, absolutely. But I never had the feeling that I was out of control while eating.
From what I gathered, life after gastric bypass isn’t peachy either. Always counting volume, calories, protein, etc. Taking vitamins for the rest of your life. Possible side effects during and after surgery. Behavioral changes.
I don’t expect a surgery to change my life without some type of intrinsic motivation, either. Weight loss surgery is a tool, not a solution. I will still have to stick with the aforementioned restrictions after the surgery if I want to be successful, which I do.
Obviously I will update everyone on my appointments, progress, etc. Today in group someone told me to start a vlog (although I seriously hate that term…sounds like something that would come out of your mouth when you have a cold). I may look into that!
Anyways, stay tuned…